Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Keeping the Motivation Going...

I love the posts that my Martial Arts studio keeps posting! Seriously, Lance and Ann, you guys have been hitting some major triggers for me. Thanks! :)

This is the post for today...

The Seven Step Process for Setting and Achieving Your Goals
by Brian Tracy

First, decide exactly what you want in each area of your life. Be specific!

Second, write it down, clearly and in detail.

Third, set a specific deadline. If it is a large goal, break it down into sub-deadlines and write them down in order.

Fourth, make a list of everything you can think of that you are going to have to do to achieve your goal. As you think of new items, add them to your list.

Fifth, organize the items on your list into a plan by placing them in the proper sequence and priority.

Sixth, take action immediately on the most important thing you can do on your plan. This is very important!

Seventh, do something every day that moves you toward the attainment of one or more of your important goals. Maintain the momentum!
This, paired with my new "buddy", my ActiveLink, I am motivated to go downstairs and do another intervals training on the treadmill. I also think I'm going to have to get into the pool today with the kids and do somewhat of a workout. 
I have to make some permanent changes to lose some of this weight and start gaining back the confidence. Tomorrow and Thursday I get to do the conditioning for the athletes again. Seems pretty silly, doesn't it??
I mean, here I am struggling to get myself motivated to get in shape and yet, it's my JOB to get these kids working hard. I just want to wake up and see the results. I wish it was that easy :( It's frustrating to see that there is no movement on the scale. It's sad to see that my clothes still fit the same. 
I know it takes time. I just wish that I could speed it up just a little!!

Monday, July 30, 2012

I had a rocking body a couple of summers ago and i never took advantage of it and wearing a 2 piece. I've just decided that one of my long term goals will be to wear a 2piece. Maybe I should buy a cute one and start doing one of those incredibly shrinking photo-op things.

I think that hubby would totally like the taking of the pics, but until I'm down quite a bit, I think it might be a little embarrassing to post.

Then again, this is pretty much only for me. Not so many views, so not too many witnesses ;)

 This is one of the things that got me thinking...

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Maybe it DOES help...

I was shamed into a workout tonight by that stupid little thing I was talking about earlier today... the ActiveLink. I am happy to say that I earned 136% of my daily goal ;)

I did an interval workout. I alternated walking and jogging for about 25mins. So including my 3.3mph walking for 5mins prior and 6mins after, I completed 2.5miles. Yeah, it's slow. It's actually pretty pathetic, but you know what? It's a start!

This was supposed to help...

I've been using the new tool that Weight Watchers is offering to the New England area only. It's called the ActiveLink. It's a little Flash drive that can be worn on your bra strap, on a lanyard around your neck, on your belt or in your side pocket.

Now, the cool thing is that this little thing monitors your activity and then you plug it into your computer and it tells you how many activity points you've earned. It measures your movement in three directions (up-down, side to side, and front to back). It also has different settings... Challenge, maintenance, and I think one other thing, but I'm not looking it up... lol!

Anyway, after wearing it without ANY feedback for a full week, I was sooo excited to find out how activity I am. To say that I am less than excited now, is an understatement. Yesterday, I was only at 87% by the time I went to bed and I was fed up. I didn't know how to make it work on the bike. I mean, I did about 35mins and it increased my "activity" by a total of 3%. I was basically killing myself to get my 100% and it didn't even notice :(

I'm also a little upset at myself. I've been watching everything I eat, but I binged a little on chips on Friday night. I used all of my weekly points and at first I thought for sure the 3 extra lbs I noticed the next morning was because I had eaten salt and vinegar chips and I was just retaining water. BUT after drinking almost my weight in water yesterday, it's still there this morning.

If I don't lose anything this week, I will flip out!!! Yeah, I know it's not all about the weight, blah blah blah, but right now I am so upset about my weight and my body that things need to continue to at least progress. I'll take anything to show that one day won't derail my entire week's work! Hell, 1lb would be good.

Anyway, I wanted to post on facebook that I wanted people to meet me at the park, but it's supposed to rain. That means, that I might have to head downstairs and workout in the gym that Hubby and I worked really hard to declutter today. It's still really dreary though :(

I need to call Dr. Brian to get my back fixed but everyone deserves a vacation and apparently, him and his beautiful wife are away. Gonna call and make an appointment for when he gets back. Then I'm calling to make an appointment to get glasses AND I'm calling to make an appointment for my dog AND I'm calling to make an appointment to meet a new pediatrician. We're all getting healthy damn it!!

Who's with me???

Thursday, July 26, 2012


I had kenpo again tonight and the final thought was motivation.

What motivates you to continue?
What motivates you to work hard?

The instructor had a great saying... "There are not lazy people. They are unmotivated or sick."


I need to push my motivation.

I have been wearing the ActiveLink from Weight Watchers for a week now which means that it's finally recording my activity points. Yay, right? Hell no!! Now I'm bummed. It's telling me that I'm a slacker.

It states that I need to start being more consistent with my activity throughout the entire day. I have no problem getting motivated to go to class. There's accountability. Just like the weigh-ins. I need to start making myself accountable for working out. I need to stop plopping my butt on the couch and get moving.

There are soo many projects in the house that need to be completed AND the kids love to go and do stuff. That means that no more unmotivated mommy. I'm going to use this new tool to jumpstart my movement. In about 5 weeks I need to go back to school and start getting my students motivated to more physically active.

I need to be a role model!! I'm also the Committee Chair for my kids schools' Health Fair... and an assistant track coach, oh and a certified strength and conditioning coach AND Athletic Trainer. Hmmm.... seems I don't have any excuses left, right?

Ok, bed now... working out tomorrow :)
So last night, we asked the kids where they wanted to go to eat...

Friendly's was the answer, right away.

This was the image that popped into my mind :)

Of course, if I want to continue to actually lose weight, I can't do something stupid like eating 5 scoops of ice cream with multiple toppings. That would blow everything I'd worked for over the past week.

So, I opened the menu with the thought of maintaining my level-headedness and this is what pops up at me...


What the hell was I thinking, letting them pick Friendly's??

I asked the waitress if they had nutritional info for the burgers. I didn't want one of the under 500 calories meals. They all looked, well, under 500 calories at a restaurant. It's kind of like wanting a cookie and getting one of those stupid vanilla wafer things.... it just doesn't cut it!

I ended up selecting the Swiss ‘n Mushroom Bacon Burger... Sautéed baby Portabella mushrooms, crispy bacon strips, melted Swiss cheese, and roasted red pepper garlic sauce piled on a Big Beef burger with lettuce, tomato and mayo. BUT I got it without the cheese (and they forgot to give me the bacon), with the sauce on the side. Oh, and I had them change it to a grilled chicken patty instead of the beef. That alone took about 160 calories off the sandwich.

I knew this because I requested the nutritional information. The waitress said no problem, but the manager had somewhat of a cow. She came out and asked me what I wanted the information for! Ummm... the food. Our waitress was awesome and she got almost a 50% tip... that's how AMAZING she was :)

I used not even a tsp of the sauce and I ended up putting the tomato and lettuce on top of the chicken and mushroom and ate it with a fork instead of eating the bun. I also opted to get the steamed broccoli instead of fries.

Now came the ice cream... I wanted to get the Jimmy Dandy pictured above, but that's just not realistic. Instead I opted for watermelon sherbet with a banana. It totally hit the spot. I love their sherbet, it's so creamy.

That means that so far this week, even with my BIG splurge of going to Friendly's I am only 4 pts into my weekly allowance. Not bad. Last week, I went over by 3pts and still managed to lose 5.8, so I'm hoping I can have at least 4lbs down this week :)

I'm going to be posting some of my recipes again soon.

What's your favorite swap??

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

week one - DONE!!

It was weigh in today... I was nervous.

I had gone over my points for the week. I couldn't see how many activity points I earned. I was feeling pretty out of control. I was trying to stay on track, but as I stated a few posts back, we had parties to go to and food that just could not be avoided. Well, at least I didn't do a good job in avoiding them...

So I held my breathe this morning and stepped onto the scale.

According to my scale at home, I should have had a loss, but that doesn't always coincide with what their scale says.

She said congrats! You lost... 5.8lbs :) hehe

I'm so proud of myself and excited to keep it going! Well, I have to go eat lunch with the kiddos.

I have my goals to keep me going... do you?

Monday, July 23, 2012

This week has been a challenge to get back into the WW routine. I went over my points this weekend and then officially went over my extra pts too. I started with the Active Link though, so I can't even check what my activity points would be because it "assesses" you for 7days. I know I've earned some though, so I'm not too stressed.

I'm still proud of myself though. I mean I was at a cookout for almost 6hrs and managed to have 15 chips (yes, I counted), a hamburger, a super mini cookie, a miller ultra light cider, a jell-o shot. Not too bad! I ate lunch before I went and had water, diet coke, and an iced coffee with splenda.

THEN, we went to cookout yesterday and they had courses! UGH!! First, there was the tortilla chips and salsa. Have I ever mentioned my addiction to all things chips. Not good. Sitting right next to the bowl **sigh**

Then they made homemade clam cakes.

Anyone around here knows that clam cakes are amazing! And they even made their own dipping sauce and it rocked. I had 1 1/2. I shouldn't have had the second one, but oh well.

Then there were cheeseburgers, salad and pasta salad. I used the smallest amount of dressing on the salad and I just now realized I could have saved 5 pts if I had just put the damn burger on the salad instead of the bun. Oh well. Just getting back into the game.

I also had cake and a scoop of ice cream. To be honest, since the cake wasn't chocolate, it wasn't even worth the points, but I ate the whole damn thing anyway.

Today, I'm back on the wagon and other than sneaking a chicken nugget (1pt) I've been really good. I'm going outside now to take care of the lawn. That should give me some points, before MMA and Kenpo. See, that's why I'm not stressing completely about going over. I just need to keep it up!

Have a great day :)

Sunday, July 22, 2012

getting it done!

This is the problem I have!!!

I keep thinking that I'm never going to make it back down to the size I was or the fitness level I was at. 
I keep thinking that I can't do it. That I'm not strong enough, not driven enough, not determined enough...

And then I realize that even though I've gained 32lbs... OMFG!!! I'm still 40lbs less than I WAS...

I have a problem where I look at my vacation pictures and see the person I was when I was 223 pounds.

I have to get over the mind issues and I think that this poster is what I NEEDED! 

I needed the reminder that I am tough enough. I am ready. I CAN do this! Hell, I've DONE this!!

Now to keep it going... no matter what:)

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Day 3 of seriously being committed again. This means that my ActiveLink from WW is still "assessing" me.


Sorry, I am an instant gratification person.

I can't wait to see what my activity levels look like. I can't wait to start seeing the scale change. I can NOT wait to see my body change!!

So this morning I woke up at 7:44... yeah, MMA starts at 8am. I had 2 choices... roll over and go back to sleep, because it's too late OR haul ass, get dressed, grab some water and RUN!

This time I am committed. If I skipped this class then I would have to do something else today. I would be copping out on myself. Which is exactly what go me to gain so much of my weight back already. I HAD to go. It wasn't an option.

The class was tough. I did horribly. I felt like I didn't have any energy to put into it, but I went. I worked as hard as I could at that point. I will be having a Dance Off with the kids today (they decided that wanted to play Mario yesterday so I did a bunch of housework instead).

 This image is stuck in my head...

Oh and this one... I actually look pregnant :(

I can't deal with this anymore. I can't teach kids that they need to move and eat better and not show it myself. I need to live the life that I'm trying to help others live. I want to feel better again!

I'm putting one foot in front of the other and pushing forward!

Friday, July 20, 2012

I survived the first day!

Well, I mostly survived. I made one big bad decision, but it was conscious and completely guilt free.



When I first started Weight Watchers back in 2005, I was soo good. I tried not even using my activity points. Well, back in those days I wasn't earning many either, but still. I stayed on track and veered very infrequently.

Last night, I made the very conscious decision to eat most of a pint of Ben and Jerry's. BUT it was the Strawberry Shortcake Greek Frozen Yogurt :) It was sooo good AND only 5pts per serving. Unfortunately, I ate 3 1/2 servings! ooopps

Truth is, it was in the freezer since before vacation and I wanted to get rid of it. I figured I'd eat a little and melt the rest. But it was soo good. So this brings me to the BEST part of WW... I can eat whatever I want... as long as I track it, which I did.

So, today is new day and I can enjoy all the yummy, healthy things I made yesterday! I made some lighter potato salad, roasted brussel sprouts, brussel sprouts and mushrooms in a pomegranate chipotle sauce, seared chicken thighs (boneless/skinless), ambrosia. Then I sliced and peeled celery (yes, peeled all of those silly little strings off with a vegetable peeler), red peppers, and lettuce.

Basically, I made my house ready for this new beginning. The kids are on board, as well! We discussed more fruits and veggies. Less sugary stuff and much, much more water!!

My goal at this point is 3lbs/wk until school starts again. That should get me down to where I was at the beginning of last year. Not great, but better.

I will be posting recipes again and logging my activity. Speaking of which... I have a Dance Off with my kiddos, to tend to :)

Have a great day!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

Just came back from vacation with the family.

Now, a vacation is hard enough... the food and the drinks and all of the yummy goodness, but we took a rode trip down to Disney and Universal and THEN we drove up to Washington, DC before finally heading home.

I did not pack the car as a smart, healthy, in control person. No. I packed the car with trail mix, pop tarts, cookies, fruit snacks, and chips... oh and don't forget the chocolate covered pretzels and mini s'mores from Cracker Barrel!!

Yeah, and did I forget to mention that you can get Pina Coladas at Universal Studios?? Yeah, and you can even get the adult version WITH alcohol... or even a double! hehe... yeah. And cotton candy and ice cream.

Heck we even went to Good Stuff Eatery in Washington, DC for amazing burgers and shakes. This was the pilot store opened by Spike from Top Chef. AND we hit up Georgetown Cupcakes... you may have heard of them. They have a little show on TLC called DC Cupcakes.

So, was it REALLY a surprise when I got home and saw that I had gained almost 10 pounds, in about that many days? I guess not.

But, I think in the back of my mind, I knew that when I came home I would "fix it". I knew that I was so fed up that no matter what, I was going back to Weight Watchers. I was going back to working out and tracking what I eat and just starting to feel better again.

Trust me, if I said it wasn't about the weight, I would be lying, but it's so much more.


I am tired. I am cranky (ask hubby). I am not in control and that FREAKS me out sooo much!!

So I am making goals for myself. I don't want to have to buy new clothes to go to back to school in and I refuse to ever buy bigger clothes again!!

I know, I've said that before and then it turned into one pair pants, then another... and another. I just need to get me back to where I need to be. I need to be a role model for my 7 and 5yr old daughters. I need to show them that you need to take care of your body.

OK... going to make some super yummy potato salad (light!) and pull out some meats so that there's no excuse for crap for lunch. lol. It's time... RIGHT NOW!